Mr. Dracy Reassurance

I am the type of girl that is very skeptical about love and trust me the Holidays help with that... Its not really something that I have had much luck in…. AT ALL.

My first love was…um. Not a smart choice. I would not even call it love as much as puppy love. I was way too young and I thought he was everything I wanted and more…. WRONG! I didn’t even know what I wanted me to be, forget what I wanted- some nappy headed boy and yes his hair was nappy…lol

Second, the Red Head. Really that’s all that needs to be said about him. We were separated by sex and racism before we could really get started, but I believe there was genuine love there. There was on my side.

Since the wonderful choices before I grew distant to the idea of love and after watching enough black and white movies, I really grew sick of it.

Then one day, in possibly the worst outfit that I have ever worn, I walked in a room and set my eyes on the most beautiful man I have ever seen in the front of the room. I was stopped in my tracks, I could not move from the place I was standing. When the meeting was over I was introduced to him and shortly after I left…it really was the worst outfit ever! Ha

I have seen the movies where there is a couple that is very obvious from the start. When the guy looks at the women she feels like she is the only person in the room. Like in Pride and Prejudice when Elizabeth is dancing with Mr. Darcy and everyone in the room vanished.

I had never experienced when a guy looks at you and you lose every train of thought It is really is kind of magical - it is also one of the great moments to be Black, easier to hide the blushing!

Yes, its just another guy and No, I don’t even know if he is interested. But that is all okay. It is refreshing to know that the presence of another person can make you feel like a million bucks- doesn’t mean when he leaves I am less.

This guy didn’t open my eyes to love, it wasn’t that simple. The Lord softened my heart to the idea a whole year before this guys showed his face. It was good reassurance- the Lord is faithful in that area.